Bukan cinta biasa...:D

Begitu banyak cerita
Atas sebab ada duka
Cinta yang ingin ku tulis
Bukanlah cinta biasa

Dua keyakinan beza
Masaalah pun takkan sama
Ku tak ingin dia ragu
Mengapa mereka selalu bertanya

Cintaku bukan di atas kertas
Cintaku getaran yang sama
Tak perlu di paksa
Tak perlu di cari
Kerna ku yakin ada jawabnya...ohhh

Andai ku bisa merubah semua
Hingga tiada orang terluka
Tapi tak mungkin,
Ku tak berdaya
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawabnya

Janji terikat setia
Masa mengupas segala
Mungkin dia kan berlalu
Ku tak mahu mereka tertawa

Diriku hanya insan biasa
Miliki naluri yang sama
Tak ingin berpaling
Tak ingin berganti
Jiwa ku sering saja berkata..ohh

Andai ku mampu mengulang semula
Ku pasti tiada yang curiga
Kasih kan hadir
Tiada terduga
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawapan...

Cintaku bukan di atas kertas
Cintaku getaran yang sama
Tak perlu di paksa
Tak perlu di cari
Kerna ku yakin ada jawabnya...ohhh

Andai ku bisa merubah semua
Hingga tiada orang terluka
Tapi tak mungkin
Ku tak berdaya
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawabnyaohhh

Diriku hanya insan biasa
Miliki naluri yang sama
Tak ingin berpaling
Tak ingin berganti
Jiwa ku sering saja berkata..ohh

Andai ku mampu pulang semula
Ku pasti tiada yang curiga
Kasih kan hadir
Tiada terduka
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawapan...



By Siti Nurhaliza.

Nice song

一路 一路 一路
从泥泞到风景
为你爬过山顶
为你掉入海里
一遍 一遍 一遍
读你留下的信
不是责怪你
只是会想你
嘿 你过得好吗
你过得好吗
会想起我吗
曾经的辛苦
还历历在目
嘿 你过得好吗
你过得好吗
你受伤了吗
如果你幸福
　 请对我微笑
　 我会看着你
　 到人海的那面
　 他一定对你很好
　 我能我能感觉的到
　 亲爱的都忘了吧
　 我曾说的天荒地老
　 他一定会比我好
　 一直一直对你很好
　 亲爱的别回头了
　 我会我会忍不住的
　
　 一遍 一遍 一遍
　 读你留下的信
　 不是责怪你
　 只是会想你
　 嘿 你过得好吗
　 你过得好吗
　 你受伤了吗
　 如果你幸福
　 请对我微笑
　 我会看着你
　 到人海的那面
　 他一定对你很好
　 我能我能感觉的到
　 亲爱的都忘了吧
　 我曾说的天荒地老
　 他一定会比我好
　 一直一直对你很好
　 亲爱的别回头了
　 我会我会忍不住的
　
　 他一定对你很好
　 我能我能感觉的到
　 亲爱的全忘了吧
　 我曾说的天荒地老
　 我会逼自己做到
　 不管从前有多美好
　 亲爱的别回头了
　 我会习惯一个人的
　 你过得好吗
　 你过得好吗
　 会想起我吗

As Life flows;

Will be getting a car soon...^_^
Or I have to wait dad to come back again for the next trip.
So yesterday we saw a black color Myvi,wanted to buy it but they was having doubts about my driving test.So they decided to buy it after I pass my driving test.
Guess who is going to buy a car for me?Surprisingly is my big brother...heh...
He told me he will get me a car right after I pass.Great isn't it?hahahha

Anyway,I was trying to clear the disk space just now.As the computer is going slow and got into lots of virus.So i need to clear some files and move all my files and my personal files to my thumb drive,but unfortunately I accidentally deleted all the pictures that i took from my phone last time,which included all those memories when I was with him.
Ahh well,I guess is just meant to be deleted earlier.Sighs.Even though I felt a bit upset about it,but I know all this memories will be gone sooner or later.
Now I realize things that are not meant to be,no matter how much you want them to be,is pointless.

things will get better soon.
:)

eeee-haaaah

=D
Is been so long I never get to watch a movie but I watched Avatar yesterday!
I must say is a really nice movie.
Apparently,they are going to have another episode of avatar.
The movie is just like you're playing Ps3.
I'm sure there's a game of avatar.xD
The story line was really great.
Some part was really touching and I have tears from my eyes for some part.
Heh...
The 3D was beautifully done.
And and and,although the avatar looks a bit weird,but somehow it looks really awesome.
Neytiri (Zoe Saldana),she just looks gorgeous to me.
It was a happy ending though,Jake and Neytiri fall in love with each other.
Damn,there's so much to talk about this movie.Heh...
Oh yeah,last but not least,the natural environment of Pandora.I go WOW,I love the glowing colors man...Is just so BEAUTIFUL.
Anyway,
Still looking forward to New moon...hmm...

I got to go now,dad and bro is taking me to see cars.Dad is planning to buy a car for me ..HEH.I better not fail My driving test this tuesday.WISH ME LUCK YA...

Bye for now.

Love

TELL me where is Fancy bred,
Or in the heart or in the head?
How begot, how nourished?
Reply, reply.
It is engender'd in the eyes,
With gazing fed; and Fancy dies
In the cradle where it lies.
Let us all ring Fancy's knell:
I'll begin it,--Ding, dong, bell.
All. Ding, dong, bell.

When to the sessions of sweet silent thought

When to the sessions of sweet silent thought
I summon up remembrance of things past,
I sigh the lack of many a thing I sought,
And with old woes new wail my dear time's waste:
Then can I drown an eye, unused to flow,
For precious friends hid in death's dateless night,
And weep afresh love's long since cancelled woe,
And moan the expense of many a vanished sight:
Then can I grieve at grievances foregone,
And heavily from woe to woe tell o'er
The sad account of fore-bemoanèd moan,
Which I new pay as if not paid before.
But if the while I think on thee, dear friend,
All losses are restored and sorrows end.

William Shakespeare

Sonnets XVIII: Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

Sonnet 95: How sweet and lovely dost thou make the shame

How sweet and lovely dost thou make the shame
Which, like a canker in the fragrant rose,
Doth spot the beauty of thy budding name!
O, in what sweets dost thou thy sins enclose!
That tongue that tells the story of thy days,
Making lascivious comments on thy sport,
Cannot dispraise, but in a kind of praise,
Naming thy name, blesses an ill report.
O, what a mansion have those vices got
Which for their habitation chose out thee,
Where beauty's veil doth cover every blot,
And all things turns to fair that eyes can see!
Take heed, dear heart, of this large privilege;
The hardest knife ill-used doth lose his edge.

William Shakespeare

Sonnet 8: Music to hear, why hear'st thou music sadly?

Music to hear, why hear'st thou music sadly?
Sweets with sweets war not, joy delights in joy.
Why lov'st thou that which thou receiv'st not gladly,
Or else receiv'st with pleasure thine annoy?
If the true concord of well-tunèd sounds,
By unions married, do offend thine ear,
They do but sweetly chide thee, who confounds
In singleness the parts that thou shouldst bear.
Mark how one string, sweet husband to another,
Strikes each in each by mutual ordering,
Resembling sire and child and happy mother,
Who, all in one, one pleasing note do sing;
Whose speechless song being many, seeming one,
Sings this to thee: "Thou single wilt prove none."

William Shakespeare

Sonnet 71: No longer mourn for me when I am dead

No longer mourn for me when I am dead
Than you shall hear the surly sullen bell
Give warning to the world that I am fled
From this vile world with vilest worms to dwell.
Nay if you read this line, remember not
The hand that writ it, for I love you so
That I in your sweet thoughts would be forgot
If thinking on me then should make you woe.
O, if, I say, you look upon this verse,
When I perhaps compounded am with clay,
Do not so much as my poor name rehearse,
But let your love even with my life decay,
Lest the wise world should look into your moan
And mock you with me after I am gone.

William Shakespeare

Sonnet 40: Take all my loves, my love, yea, take them all

Take all my loves, my love, yea, take them all;
What hast thou then more than thou hadst before?
No love, my love, that thou mayst true love call;
All mine was thine, before thou hadst this more.
Then if for my love, thou my love receivest,
I cannot blame thee, for my love thou usest;
But yet be blamed, if thou thy self deceivest
By wilful taste of what thy self refusest.
I do forgive thy robbery, gentle thief,
Although thou steal thee all my poverty;
And yet love knows it is a greater grief
To bear love's wrong, than hate's known injury.
Lascivious grace, in whom all ill well shows,
Kill me with spites; yet we must not be foes.

William Shakespeare

Sonnet 151: Love is too young to know what conscience is

Love is too young to know what conscience is;
Yet who knows not conscience is born of love?
Then, gentle cheater, urge not my amiss,
Lest guilty of my faults thy sweet self prove.
For thou betraying me, I do betray
My nobler part to my gross body's treason;
My soul doth tell my body that he may
Triumph in love; flesh stays no farther reason,
But, rising at thy name, doth point out thee
As his triumphant prize. Proud of this pride,
He is contented thy poor drudge to be,
To stand in thy affairs, fall by thy side.
No want of conscience hold it that I call,
Her "love" for whose dear love I rise and fall.

William Shakespeare

Sonnet 132: Thine eyes I love, and they, as pitying me

Thine eyes I love, and they, as pitying me,
Knowing thy heart torment me with disdain,
Have put on black, and loving mourners be,
Looking with pretty ruth upon my pain.
And truly not the morning sun of heaven
Better becomes the grey cheeks of the east,
Nor that full star that ushers in the even
Doth half that glory to the sober west
As those two mourning eyes become thy face.
O, let it then as well beseem thy heart
To mourn for me since mourning doth thee grace,
And suit thy pity like in every part.
Then will I swear beauty herself is black,
And all they foul that thy complexion lack.

Sonnet 113: Since I left you, mine eye is in my mind

Since I left you, mine eye is in my mind,
And that which governs me to go about
Doth part his function, and is partly blind,
Seems seeing, but effectually is out;
For it no form delivers to the heart
Of bird, of flower, or shape which it doth latch;
Of his quick objects hath the mind no part,
Nor his own vision holds what it doth catch;
For if it see the rud'st or gentlest sight,
The most sweet-favour or deformed'st creature,
The mountain or the sea, the day or night,
The crow or dove, it shapes them to your feature.
Incapable of more, replete with you,
My most true mind thus maketh mine untrue.

Sonnet 112: Your love and pity doth th' impression fill

Your love and pity doth th' impression fill
Which vulgar scandal stamped upon my brow;
For what care I who calls me well or ill,
So you o'ergreen my bad, my good allow?
You are my all the world, and I must strive
To know my shames and praises from your tongue;
None else to me, nor I to none alive,
That my steeled sense or changes, right or wrong.
In so profound abysm I throw all care
Of others' voices that my adder's sense
To critic and to flatterer stoppèd are.
Mark how with my neglect I do dispense.
You are so strongly in my purpose bred,
That all the world besides, methinks, are dead.

Sonnet 102: My love is strengthened, though more weak in seeming

My love is strengthened, though more weak in seeming;
I love not less, though less the show appear;
That love is merchandized, whose rich esteeming
The owner's tongue doth publish everywhere.
Our love was new, and then but in the spring
When I was wont to greet it with my lays,
As Philomel in summer's front doth sing,
And stops her pipe in growth of riper days—
Not that the summer is less pleasant now
Than when her mournful hymns did hush the night,
But that wild music burthens every bough,
And sweets grown common lose their dear delight.
Therefore like her I sometime hold my tongue,
Because I would not dull you with my song.

#1 By William Shakespear

A Lover's Complaint


FROM off a hill whose concave womb reworded
A plaintful story from a sistering vale,
My spirits to attend this double voice accorded,
And down I laid to list the sad-tuned tale;
Ere long espied a fickle maid full pale,
Tearing of papers, breaking rings a-twain,
Storming her world with sorrow's wind and rain.

Upon her head a platted hive of straw,
Which fortified her visage from the sun,
Whereon the thought might think sometime it saw
The carcass of beauty spent and done:
Time had not scythed all that youth begun,
Nor youth all quit; but, spite of heaven's fell rage,
Some beauty peep'd through lattice of sear'd age.

Oft did she heave her napkin to her eyne,
Which on it had conceited characters,
Laundering the silken figures in the brine
That season'd woe had pelleted in tears,
And often reading what contents it bears;
As often shrieking undistinguish'd woe,
In clamours of all size, both high and low.

Sometimes her levell'd eyes their carriage ride,
As they did battery to the spheres intend;
Sometime diverted their poor balls are tied
To the orbed earth; sometimes they do extend
Their view right on; anon their gazes lend
To every place at once, and, nowhere fix'd,
The mind and sight distractedly commix'd.

Her hair, nor loose nor tied in formal plat,
Proclaim'd in her a careless hand of pride
For some, untuck'd, descended her sheaved hat,
Hanging her pale and pined cheek beside;
Some in her threaden fillet still did bide,
And true to bondage would not break from thence,
Though slackly braided in loose negligence.

A thousand favours from a maund she drew
Of amber, crystal, and of beaded jet,
Which one by one she in a river threw,
Upon whose weeping margent she was set;
Like usury, applying wet to wet,
Or monarch's hands that let not bounty fall
Where want cries some, but where excess begs all.

Of folded schedules had she many a one,
Which she perused, sigh'd, tore, and gave the flood;
Crack'd many a ring of posied gold and bone
Bidding them find their sepulchres in mud;
Found yet moe letters sadly penn'd in blood,
With sleided silk feat and affectedly
Enswathed, and seal'd to curious secrecy.

These often bathed she in her fluxive eyes,
And often kiss'd, and often 'gan to tear:
Cried 'O false blood, thou register of lies,
What unapproved witness dost thou bear!
Ink would have seem'd more black and damned here!'
This said, in top of rage the lines she rents,
Big discontent so breaking their contents.

A reverend man that grazed his cattle nigh--
Sometime a blusterer, that the ruffle knew
Of court, of city, and had let go by
The swiftest hours, observed as they flew--
Towards this afflicted fancy fastly drew,
And, privileged by age, desires to know
In brief the grounds and motives of her woe.

So slides he down upon his grained bat,
And comely-distant sits he by her side;
When he again desires her, being sat,
Her grievance with his hearing to divide:
If that from him there may be aught applied
Which may her suffering ecstasy assuage,
'Tis promised in the charity of age.

'Father,' she says, 'though in me you behold
The injury of many a blasting hour,
Let it not tell your judgment I am old;
Not age, but sorrow, over me hath power:
I might as yet have been a spreading flower,
Fresh to myself, If I had self-applied
Love to myself and to no love beside.

'But, woe is me! too early I attended
A youthful suit--it was to gain my grace--
Of one by nature's outwards so commended,
That maidens' eyes stuck over all his face:
Love lack'd a dwelling, and made him her place;
And when in his fair parts she did abide,
She was new lodged and newly deified.

'His browny locks did hang in crooked curls;
And every light occasion of the wind
Upon his lips their silken parcels hurls.
What's sweet to do, to do will aptly find:
Each eye that saw him did enchant the mind,
For on his visage was in little drawn
What largeness thinks in Paradise was sawn.

'Small show of man was yet upon his chin;
His phoenix down began but to appear
Like unshorn velvet on that termless skin
Whose bare out-bragg'd the web it seem'd to wear:
Yet show'd his visage by that cost more dear;
And nice affections wavering stood in doubt
If best were as it was, or best without.

'His qualities were beauteous as his form,
For maiden-tongued he was, and thereof free;
Yet, if men moved him, was he such a storm
As oft 'twixt May and April is to see,
When winds breathe sweet, untidy though they be.
His rudeness so with his authorized youth
Did livery falseness in a pride of truth.

'Well could he ride, and often men would say
'That horse his mettle from his rider takes:
Proud of subjection, noble by the sway,
What rounds, what bounds, what course, what stop
he makes!'
And controversy hence a question takes,
Whether the horse by him became his deed,
Or he his manage by the well-doing steed.

'But quickly on this side the verdict went:
His real habitude gave life and grace
To appertainings and to ornament,
Accomplish'd in himself, not in his case:
All aids, themselves made fairer by their place,
Came for additions; yet their purposed trim
Pieced not his grace, but were all graced by him.

'So on the tip of his subduing tongue
All kinds of arguments and question deep,
All replication prompt, and reason strong,
For his advantage still did wake and sleep:
To make the weeper laugh, the laugher weep,
He had the dialect and different skill,
Catching all passions in his craft of will:

'That he did in the general bosom reign
Of young, of old; and sexes both enchanted,
To dwell with him in thoughts, or to remain
In personal duty, following where he haunted:
Consents bewitch'd, ere he desire, have granted;
And dialogued for him what he would say,
Ask'd their own wills, and made their wills obey.

'Many there were that did his picture get,
To serve their eyes, and in it put their mind;
Like fools that in th' imagination set
The goodly objects which abroad they find
Of lands and mansions, theirs in thought assign'd;
And labouring in moe pleasures to bestow them
Than the true gouty landlord which doth owe them:

'So many have, that never touch'd his hand,
Sweetly supposed them mistress of his heart.
My woeful self, that did in freedom stand,
And was my own fee-simple, not in part,
What with his art in youth, and youth in art,
Threw my affections in his charmed power,
Reserved the stalk and gave him all my flower.

'Yet did I not, as some my equals did,
Demand of him, nor being desired yielded;
Finding myself in honour so forbid,
With safest distance I mine honour shielded:
Experience for me many bulwarks builded
Of proofs new-bleeding, which remain'd the foil
Of this false jewel, and his amorous spoil.

'But, ah, who ever shunn'd by precedent
The destined ill she must herself assay?
Or forced examples, 'gainst her own content,
To put the by-past perils in her way?
Counsel may stop awhile what will not stay;
For when we rage, advice is often seen
By blunting us to make our wits more keen.

'Nor gives it satisfaction to our blood,
That we must curb it upon others' proof;
To be forbod the sweets that seem so good,
For fear of harms that preach in our behoof.
O appetite, from judgment stand aloof!
The one a palate hath that needs will taste,
Though Reason weep, and cry, 'It is thy last.'

'For further I could say 'This man's untrue,'
And knew the patterns of his foul beguiling;
Heard where his plants in others' orchards grew,
Saw how deceits were gilded in his smiling;
Knew vows were ever brokers to defiling;
Thought characters and words merely but art,
And bastards of his foul adulterate heart.

'And long upon these terms I held my city,
Till thus he gan besiege me: 'Gentle maid,
Have of my suffering youth some feeling pity,
And be not of my holy vows afraid:
That's to ye sworn to none was ever said;
For feasts of love I have been call'd unto,
Till now did ne'er invite, nor never woo.

''All my offences that abroad you see
Are errors of the blood, none of the mind;
Love made them not: with acture they may be,
Where neither party is nor true nor kind:
They sought their shame that so their shame did find;
And so much less of shame in me remains,
By how much of me their reproach contains.

''Among the many that mine eyes have seen,
Not one whose flame my heart so much as warm'd,
Or my affection put to the smallest teen,
Or any of my leisures ever charm'd:
Harm have I done to them, but ne'er was harm'd;
Kept hearts in liveries, but mine own was free,
And reign'd, commanding in his monarchy.

''Look here, what tributes wounded fancies sent me,
Of paled pearls and rubies red as blood;
Figuring that they their passions likewise lent me
Of grief and blushes, aptly understood
In bloodless white and the encrimson'd mood;
Effects of terror and dear modesty,
Encamp'd in hearts, but fighting outwardly.

''And, lo, behold these talents of their hair,
With twisted metal amorously impleach'd,
I have received from many a several fair,
Their kind acceptance weepingly beseech'd,
With the annexions of fair gems enrich'd,
And deep-brain'd sonnets that did amplify
Each stone's dear nature, worth, and quality.

''The diamond,--why, 'twas beautiful and hard,
Whereto his invised properties did tend;
The deep-green emerald, in whose fresh regard
Weak sights their sickly radiance do amend;
The heaven-hued sapphire and the opal blend
With objects manifold: each several stone,
With wit well blazon'd, smiled or made some moan.

''Lo, all these trophies of affections hot,
Of pensived and subdued desires the tender,
Nature hath charged me that I hoard them not,
But yield them up where I myself must render,
That is, to you, my origin and ender;
For these, of force, must your oblations be,
Since I their altar, you enpatron me.

''O, then, advance of yours that phraseless hand,
Whose white weighs down the airy scale of praise;
Take all these similes to your own command,
Hallow'd with sighs that burning lungs did raise;
What me your minister, for you obeys,
Works under you; and to your audit comes
Their distract parcels in combined sums.

''Lo, this device was sent me from a nun,
Or sister sanctified, of holiest note;
Which late her noble suit in court did shun,
Whose rarest havings made the blossoms dote;
For she was sought by spirits of richest coat,
But kept cold distance, and did thence remove,
To spend her living in eternal love.

''But, O my sweet, what labour is't to leave
The thing we have not, mastering what not strives,
Playing the place which did no form receive,
Playing patient sports in unconstrained gyves?
She that her fame so to herself contrives,
The scars of battle 'scapeth by the flight,
And makes her absence valiant, not her might.

''O, pardon me, in that my boast is true:
The accident which brought me to her eye
Upon the moment did her force subdue,
And now she would the caged cloister fly:
Religious love put out Religion's eye:
Not to be tempted, would she be immured,
And now, to tempt, all liberty procured.

''How mighty then you are, O, hear me tell!
The broken bosoms that to me belong
Have emptied all their fountains in my well,
And mine I pour your ocean all among:
I strong o'er them, and you o'er me being strong,
Must for your victory us all congest,
As compound love to physic your cold breast.

''My parts had power to charm a sacred nun,
Who, disciplined, ay, dieted in grace,
Believed her eyes when they to assail begun,
All vows and consecrations giving place:
O most potential love! vow, bond, nor space,
In thee hath neither sting, knot, nor confine,
For thou art all, and all things else are thine.

''When thou impressest, what are precepts worth
Of stale example? When thou wilt inflame,
How coldly those impediments stand forth
Of wealth, of filial fear, law, kindred, fame!
Love's arms are peace, 'gainst rule, 'gainst sense,
'gainst shame,
And sweetens, in the suffering pangs it bears,
The aloes of all forces, shocks, and fears.

''Now all these hearts that do on mine depend,
Feeling it break, with bleeding groans they pine;
And supplicant their sighs to you extend,
To leave the battery that you make 'gainst mine,
Lending soft audience to my sweet design,
And credent soul to that strong-bonded oath
That shall prefer and undertake my troth.'

'This said, his watery eyes he did dismount,
Whose sights till then were levell'd on my face;
Each cheek a river running from a fount
With brinish current downward flow'd apace:
O, how the channel to the stream gave grace!
Who glazed with crystal gate the glowing roses
That flame through water which their hue encloses.

'O father, what a hell of witchcraft lies
In the small orb of one particular tear!
But with the inundation of the eyes
What rocky heart to water will not wear?
What breast so cold that is not warmed here?
O cleft effect! cold modesty, hot wrath,
Both fire from hence and chill extincture hath.

'For, lo, his passion, but an art of craft,
Even there resolved my reason into tears;
There my white stole of chastity I daff'd,
Shook off my sober guards and civil fears;
Appear to him, as he to me appears,
All melting; though our drops this difference bore,
His poison'd me, and mine did him restore.

'In him a plenitude of subtle matter,
Applied to cautels, all strange forms receives,
Of burning blushes, or of weeping water,
Or swooning paleness; and he takes and leaves,
In either's aptness, as it best deceives,
To blush at speeches rank to weep at woes,
Or to turn white and swoon at tragic shows.

'That not a heart which in his level came
Could 'scape the hail of his all-hurting aim,
Showing fair nature is both kind and tame;
And, veil'd in them, did win whom he would maim:
Against the thing he sought he would exclaim;
When he most burn'd in heart-wish'd luxury,
He preach'd pure maid, and praised cold chastity.

'Thus merely with the garment of a Grace
The naked and concealed fiend he cover'd;
That th' unexperient gave the tempter place,
Which like a cherubin above them hover'd.
Who, young and simple, would not be so lover'd?
Ay me! I fell; and yet do question make
What I should do again for such a sake.

'O, that infected moisture of his eye,
O, that false fire which in his cheek so glow'd,
O, that forced thunder from his heart did fly,
O, that sad breath his spongy lungs bestow'd,
O, all that borrow'd motion seeming owed,
Would yet again betray the fore-betray'd,
And new pervert a reconciled maid!'

你过得好吗?

Tamia - Officially Missing You♥♥♥

For ♥

Kukatakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya

Kau beri rasa
Yang berbeda
Mungkin kusalah
Mengartikannya
Yang kurasa cinta

* Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu

** Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagih
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

back to *

Membuatku terjatuh
Dan terjatuh lagi

** Membuatku merasakan
Yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik
Dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti
Tanpa kuakhiri

Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tak tertahan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu ...

Is time :

Please Excuse me;



Haha...Random video of dolly.This is how she do her business...

Well,I guess I should be moving on without him already...I have decided to choose to be myself again.It would be better for me to get over him to make my life even better and meaningful.Don't wanna waste my time for this anymore,cause is pointless to live like this because of someone that don't even care or give a damn about you.I've learned to be stronger because of you ,and I'm not gonna be that gullible to believe in whatever crap.Guess it should be better to live life to the fullest.Who knows someday i won't have the chance to live anymore.
Heaven knows why I'm thinking like this.I will never gonna regret about the past no more and I reckon I will keep myself busy to not remind myself about the past I had been through.

''Think whatever you want about me,say whatever you want about me because you know you don't care about me anymore,so why bother to even bullshit about me.''(:



Anyway,this new semester i'm facing now is gonna be tough,I got a feeling is going to pressure me.Economics is killing me,facing difficulties in chapter 2.Damn!
And Quantitative technologies is even worse,is like going back to form 4 and 5 modern maths!Why cant mathematics leave me alone.!T.T

I need to be focus and do well this time.
Got my last semester results,it was alright...Wanna see?HAHAHAHA...


Tada...



Not proud though should have done better...:(

she said :

when will it stop
the pain
that darkness
that that that
that part of me
that was or Y-O-U!
why can't you feel it
why did u leave
why why why?
love hurts
but so does life

I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody
but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...

good good day:

Went to the work shop yesterday and visited sarah in adventist hospital.
Got the T-shirt and is white...My favorite!=D

Pictures below:




Sarah:



WOOT!I'm loving the colour of my hair now:

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Sighs...

Dad is going off to work in Macau for 3 months.And he is going off on this coming thursday...
So fast...=[ No more food on the table for me for 3 months.
I dislike to live with my mum,cause she is a very irresponsible mother.
I love my dad ,but he had to go.Dolly and I will be missing him a lot.
And no more astro from now onwards because astro is giving a lot of problems.Always cannot watch when raining and the wire spoiled or something.
So dad is going to cut off the astro by today and off to Macau very soon.
Sighs...
My life is going to be a miserable one without my dad.My college gonna start soon and I guess i'm going to walk to college everyday instead of asking my mum to fetch me there.
She will definitely ask me to walk there alone.
I HATE HER.
T.T

I'm just half way learning to drive;even if I got my P licence I still dont have a car with me yet cause dad will not be with me.
Cause he told me he will buy me a small car to drive...=[
Well,I got to wait until next year already.

Will be going for a farewell dinner tonight with my bro's girlfriend and my parents.
Is gonna be Evelyn and my dad's farewell.
One is going off to KL and another one is going off to MACAU.

Will miss them a lot.

What if whats best for "us"

Is whats hardest to do

I still love you but,

I have to let you go

I love you....

I Love You Goodbye – Nina

Wish i could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish i could say to you

That i’ll always stay with you
But baby that’s not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that’s something i can’t do

Oh i could say that i’ll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know i’d only hurt you
I know i’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can find some way to understand i’m only doing this for you
I don’t really wanna go
But deep in my heart i know this is the kindest thing to do
You’ll find someone who’ll be the one that i could never be
Who’ll give you something better
Than the love you’ll find with me
Oh i could say that i’ll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know i’d only hurt you
I know i’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as i love you

Oh i don’t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But i’ll never be the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

Incredible child genius in malaysia

Who is this child genius?
His name is Adi Putra Abdul Ghani

He is a CEO and a lecturer now.

The star says:

CHILD genius Adi Putra Abdul Ghani, 10, is now the chief executive officer of two companies and a lecturer who charges RM6,000 per hour, Sin Chew Daily and Nanyang Siang Pau reported.

The dailies said his mother Serihana Alias operates the two companies, which sell vitamins under the brand Adi.

Adi Putra, who is supposed to be attending Year Four classes at his age, has stopped schooling.

He has been invited to certain local universities to give lectures.

The Perak-born child genius, who moved to Selangor with his family a few years ago, was quoted as saying that he wanted to be a lecturer in Islamic studies.

Serihana said he keeps track of foreign stock markets via the Internet and studies at home.

“He’s interested in mathematics, physics, chemistry, geography and biology, but not so much in history and politics. He dislikes reading books but loves spending his time browsing the Net for study materials.

“Adi also hopes to study in Canada, Singapore or the United States, but we have yet to come to a final decision,” she said.

Just imagine :RM6OOO per hour for a 10 years old kid.RM 6000 is quite a lot for him to spend as a young boy.
Even a teacher or a lecturer can't even afford to have that amount of money per hour...

This young boy is seriously BRILLIANT!

He is going to be very successful in the future.

How amazing to see such a young boy earning so much than the teachers and lecturers.XD

Emotinal thoughts :

I have always wanted to know you since I first saw you walking out,but I never dare to do so.

But I never thought that you will be gone that soon.
I'm just a little bit too late to know your name and so much about you.
I never judge wrong about you when the first time I see you.
You left so much of memories here and is all a good one.
People could only treasure the past of what you've left today.


Is really sad to hear about the sudden death of yours.
I was really shocked,I thought it wasn't you.But when I see clearly,it was really you.
Is really hard to accept the truth.
I admit I cried for you even I don't have the chance to see you or get to know you again.
Wish you could have live longer but is alright,I believe you're now in a better place.

May you rest in peace.

Reminiscing back:

The first time I saw you,you was walking out from your house,and I was walking back to my house after school by public bus.

The last time I saw you,you went to the nearby coffee shop to buy food from the Japanese stall.It was really a surprise to met you there,but still we don't even know each other.

But now,you're gone and i only started to know so much about you,isn't it too late?

Well,is destiny.





________________________________________________________________



For those who are facing a sudden death of your beloved friends or family :

Take all the time you need to feel all that you need to feel.

Take all the time you need to remember and revisit all that you experienced and shared with the one you lost.

There will be a day when you do not weep.

There will be a day when you surprise yourself with a small laugh.

There will be a day when your heart’s heaviness has lifted.

Saya Anak Bangsa Malaysia (SABM)

Random

Emily took What Song Discribes Your Love Life?(Lyrics Included)

HeartBroken
You have been hurt, and you don't know where to go from this point. Listen to this song! Its a good one! (Lifehouse) Broken (Lyrics) I'm falling apart I'm barely breathing With a broken heart That's still beating In the pain There is heal...ing In your name I find meaning So I'm holding on (I'm holdin on)(I'm holdin on) I'm barely holding on to you The broken locks were a warning You got inside my head I tried my best to be guarded I'm an open book instead And I still see your reflection Inside of my eyes That are looking for purpose They're still looking for life

Emily took What State Is Your Heart In?

Heart Thats Been Shattered
Your heart has been shattered beyond hope, everyday brings more pain and endless despair. Someone may have just taken your heart and crushed it in their hands and you feel it throb within your chest everyday. To you love brings only pain and misery even w...hat were once your closest memories just bring tears now, if there is any hope of your smile ever returning or this pain ever ending your can't see it from where you are.





Is so true about me,I go OMG...IS SO TRUE! Before I did the quiz I was so addicted to LIFEHOUSE!The first song I heard was BROKEN,and i find it very very meaningful and nice and started to search more of thier songs.And Half of the songs suits me!Woo hooo...=D



Love is Pain :

The sweets:

I found my sweets in my handbag pocket!!!Gosh,is been so long already.
Hmmm...let me see when was the last time I blog about this sweets.haha...

Lol!I found the post already :
http://aslifeflows.blogspot.com/2009/09/time-flies-when-youre-busy.html

wow...it was since 19/9/09 so it means since 19 september 2009...Haha...Months ago already.

I'm gonna eat it to get my self stomach pain.=D

LIFEHOUSE <3333

"Whatever It Takes"

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

what's up!

Is been so long since I blog...

Well,nothing much though...I am bored as usual.

woo hoo...Lifehouse-broken is nice....

Great People :

Went gurney today,and I had fun.Thanks to elspeth and friends.

Apparently a lot of people been searching for me for a long time,everybody been looking for me and thought that I was lost while kept wondering where's emily.A lot of people was really surprised to see me and felt that they have found a long lost friend.Haha...Now i only know I was famous once.Not a good thing though,wanna keep my self a low profile better.Now,at least they know I'm still alive...Great.


Took a lot of pictures with them because they was so excited to see me.Make me felt really touched.And my presence were so important to them....Great people.

I know I had been missing for a long time due to some problems,I am sorry.
I did this for the sake of love.

Anyway,i'm glad to spend half of my day with you guys.=D

Watched movie and chit chatting around is enough to make my day to forget him.

I will move on and I will take everyone's advices from now.


Goodnight World!

Semester break 2009

Will be going to check out for french lesson tomorrow morning...
Dad wants me to pick up languages like German,Japanese or french.And I've made my choice which is French.
Perhaps going for the trial classes.

Hmm... hope is interesting,because I am interested in learning languages...Well so here I come.

Hehe...Dad said he will sponsor me.Because he dislike me doing nothing and waste time when i am having a long sem break.

Oh ya,another thing...I have been procrastinating my undang computer test till now because I dont seem to lulus by practicing myself in the computer,but now I am improving and I got 80 and above which means Lulus.

Well,I need to call up to book for my test and transportation myself.Shouldnt have procrastinate it!

I don't feel like going gurney tomorrow with els but I have no idea how to tell her.=/

My mobile number havent been told to anyone else accept Mum and him.
Haha...Just now one random number called :I thought it was him...But when I saw the number,it wasnt him la.Never dare to answer cause I don't know the number,perhaps he or she might called the wrong number.But hello!My number is a new number!Lol.


Ok la,I can't wait to learn french...I am like so new!

Well will be going to

Alliance Francaise De Penang tomorrow!

Check it out:www.pg.alliancefrancaise.org.my


Signing out!Adios~ =D

Breast Cancer month

Hallmark channel is always about life!
Loving it.
Especially the song they usually play it on Tv during advertisement:

hey baby don't forget
live a life with no regrets
you know you got to love this life
love your life
how can you be blue
when the world awaits for you
loving your life
life life life is beautiful
love your life


Until now I still haven't get a new mobile number myself.
Promised elspeth to get a new one by today,she kept bug me to get a new number so that can sms eachother...
But honestly,I hate sms-ing.Lol

Anyway,going Kulim this friday cause my aunt won 30thousand for 4 digit numbers.
So she is gonna treat us eat.Wonder how much she will give me,sighs...felt bad oso la,never even visit her.:(

__________________________________________________________________

All the songs you used to share and listen reminds me of you,i will continue loving you,doesn't matter how long is it going to be.

Sighs...I know talk is cheap...but I mean it myself.

Every night I see our pictures we took,and I could only give a kiss on your face on my phone screen. How insane!
And my eyes will look very weird every time when i woke up from my sleep.


Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you

You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby

You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you

Still I cry silently

I learned to cry silently as a child

I was taught my feelings were something to hide

My thoughts seemed to matter as much as I

And if someone said different they were telling a lie

I was taught to hide myself behind my smile

Constantly I was reminded I wasn't worth while

Yet my shame loomed over me as I lived within my skin

I find myself now wondering just who really did win

I carry with me all my tortures and guilt

Praying to God each day that this torture does quit

My uncertainty now is the life that I lead

Expecting to much, trying to fill that need

Wanting so badly to be accepted and loved

Yet wanting to be free, as free as a dove

The dove represents purity of which I have none

I feel alone in this world, there is no one



Still I cry silently just like that child

My feelings still don't matter and from them I still hide

I bury them deeper and deeper than before

I can not bring myself to open that door

Not really certain of what I will find

This life is my prison; I can not hide

The reminders are constant with each glimpse of myself

Just wanting to run and hide from myself

Yet the guilt and the shame, they follow me

Clouding my thoughts; almost blinding me

Pain and loss are familiar to me

Breaking my heart while laughing at me

Time seems to pass and the torture prevails

No laughter, just sadness with a veil of tears

Loneliness overshadows these thoughts at times

But soon am reminded of my past crimes



Still I sit crying just like that little girl

Finding myself lost in my own little world

Is there anyone at all who can see through this pain?

Will there ever be life in these eyes again?

I oftentimes wonder why this happened to me

And then I realize, it was meant to be

If things had been different, would I be the same?

Would my life be filled with this torture and shame?

I still try to run and hide from my past

But it always finds me; I can't run that fast

The child inside me just wants to live

But the person I am has not learned to forgive

Its a process they tell me and that it is slow

I want to be whole, I just want to grow

I want to know love and to give it back

I want to know feelings; I'm tired of this black

Emotional thoughts ;

Can someone save me?
I'm really dying over him.
I know nothing's gonna change...
But this feeling is hurting me each time.
I broke down a lot a lot of time.
I can feel my heart is breaking each day.
Trying to act strong ,but i know I'm weak at times.
I pity myself to get hurt so badly,
My tears are falling each sentence I'm expressing.
My emotional thoughts are killing me in pain.
This pain will never erase ,will never vanish away...
This feeling makes me wanna die,
I wish i could just die,and stop living.
But i know is not worth it,not worth it at all.
I got to be rational over committing suicide...
I've becoming this ugly ,
but all i want to do,
is be more like me and be less like you.
I told my self not to call him anymore,but still i insist.
The more i call him the more i wish to talk to him,
I will be even more painful.
Because the treatment from him was not nice at all...

I'm just being hurt each day,i felt that my heart is wounded badly.

I just had to cry out loud silently in my room when there's no one around me...

I can't control this feeling anymore,i cannot bare with it any longer.

God,please help me...I really had enough.
I'm so sick with this love life...

And i shall cry my self to sleep again and again...

I got to stop this,not to call him to hurt my self again.
I'm weak enough...


It felt like this huge prison of sadness,and i knew that death would set me free.


Goodnight Emily.

Back

Finished my housework around 4 something then
straight away watch singapore series...
ahaha...
Now everything is clean...
After the singapore series ended went to do my own fake medicure with fake nails.
I did 2 of my toe nails too...
HAHAHA...
then watch TV since 6pm until now...Great!

Well,let me show you my nails :

My toe nails:





Nice or not?
But is a bit uncomfortable...cause is long...

Wish I can have a real medicure and pedicure.

:)

Anyway,i won't be jogging tomorrow,dad told me he is tired cause he is out the whole day today...
Will jog only the next day which is Sunday.
Heh...

By the way,the song RETURN TO ME is nice,cause i wish to dedicate this song to my love.


Here's the lyrics:
I know my voice is silence to your ears
I know I said some things you didn't deserve to hear
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I miss you?
I lie awake at night kicking at the sheets
No matter how much I try they never cover my feet
I need you, God I need you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through my days

[Chorus]
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)

You call me on the phone to try to see if I'm at home
You play with my emotions; give me some kind of hope
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through these lonely, lonely nights

[Chorus]

You've got me desperate and confused
And my confidence is thrown
I'd rather be miserable with you
Than ever be alone
You're free, of me

You lift me up
(Just to let me down)

I will change the way I talk
I will change the way I feel
I will change the way I walk
Until nothing left is real
I will change the way I call your name
I will change the way I eat
I will change the way I touch you
When you're lying there asleep
Because I miss you
God I miss you, I miss you
Return to me
Return to me
I will change everything.


Goodnight!

6:41am

Good Morning people,I'm awake for a jog.
now waiting for dad...
Lol...

__________________
Came back at 730am...
So frigging tired!
Like very very tired!
Dad and I jogged until G hotel only...
Haha...
We sat there and talk,told dad about the sunset.At the same time,dad asked me to massage for him...Lmao...and i did lo...What a great daughter...=D
But i did not see the sunset.
Hmm...i can't believe my dad can jog better than me...
I'm so weak...
Now,i know why woman hates to be fat,
Because is so hard to burn your fats...
Exercising is so hard and stressful,my stomach was painful while jogging.
I sweat like hell...
I just have to stopped half way jogging back but dad wasn't...I go wow,and i wanted to challenge him..But obviously i cant la...
Half way jogging back,we fed pigeon with an old uncle...Nicee....

Once i got home,I quickly switched on the air-cond in my room and sat on the floor.
Felt like vomiting...Damn it!
Then make myself a cup of hot milo and rest.
After one hour go bath and sleep again until 11 am...HAHAHAH...
Now,dad is out and asked me to clean the house...
But i'm going to bath my baby first then only vacuum and mop the floor...
Clean the house is also one of the way of burning fats kay...
And i hate my super fat face like so much...
I'm not gonna have lunch already...
So till here from now,will be back when I'm done with my housework...
XD

Today ;

Been home the whole day...
LOL!
Been spending my whole day watching xiaxue's (wendy) videos...
I love her entertaining me la...
I watched almost all her video you know!
Xiaxue(wendy) is really really good...I love the way she speaks...
Well,
now i know what to do when I'm bored.
xD
I still wanna follow up her videos...

I'm gonna like sleep now you know...early right?
I feels like today is Friday or saturday...
So relax and nice...
But sighs,at the same time missing him as usual...
Well tomorrow i wanna JOG!I mean it!
Wanna wake up as early like half past 6...so that i can see sunset in gurney drive...
hah..
reminds me of my love told me about the sunset was very nice.Sighs...
we even planned to watch it together...But now...is just have to come to an end.

Anyway,
I love the song from the last goodnight...

The Last Goodnight - Poison Kiss lyrics
The Last Goodnight - Back Where We Belong lyrics
The Last Goodnight - Pictures Of You lyrics
The Last Goodnight - Stay Beautiful lyrics
The Last Goodnight - This Is The Sound lyrics
The Last Goodnight - One Trust lyrics
The Last Goodnight - Return To Me lyrics
The Last Goodnight - Good Love lyrics
The Last Goodnight - If I Talk To God lyrics
The Last Goodnight - Push Me Away lyrics
The Last Goodnight - In Your Arms lyrics
The Last Goodnight - Incomplete lyrics
Check it out...
My favorites are in red!

Pictures of you :


Return to me:


One trust :


Good love :

No jogging :(

I miss my jogging as i said I'm going to jog by today...
But I did not make it...
Was very sleepy because of sleeping late last night...
FML...


Then now the weather is cooling...
Lol...
Dad says : Jogging wor!
Emily says: It was raining ok...hehe...
Actually it wasn't raining early in the morning...
I'm just being lazy to wake up...
Well, nevermind...
Today can't make it still got tomorrow...XD

Anyway,Dad wanted to go for a movie today...
I shall see how...=)

I Love you...

I think of you day and night,
reminiscing about the past we had,I just can't help it.
You were the one for me all this while,
and I'm used to your love.
Before I sleep I will be looking through our pictures we took together,
I treasure it all night long with my tears falling.
It was a sleepless night after losing you.
Although how tired i am,I just never give up being aware of you.

You're all I need.

26/09/2009

I am loving you but i had to lose you
tears keep falling down
I am finally trying to make a break through
but the thing is that i still don't know how
it must be your love that I have in my heart
that keeps me going
you still loved me and now i keep showing
my love for you
even though
I had to lose you but I am still loving you
everyday every waking hour
I have you in my mind
i just got to go through this life without you.

30/09/09

I've been missing you for a long time,
but i know you're not coming back to me anymore.
I miss your presence,your voice and your love.
I wish somehow,someday I could have you back here by my side.
Is been hurting me so badly,
that I don't even know what I'm actually living for without you.

2/10/09

You left me wondering around
No longer do I feel safe and sound
Stumbling on our pictures
Cant keep in all of this hurt
I loved you so damn much
That now I cry for your touch
That no longer comes my way
No matter how much I beg and pray
Into my bed I crawl alone
Just to see myself left alone
It was a week ago since you said goodbye
But your presence still lingers here with me
It fills my body with such distress
Turning me into a total mess

I hold my broken heart in my hand
Trying to keep it together the best I can
But no matter how much glue I use
I still cry and feel sad
For in this prison called my room
I keep memories of me and you
They haunt me every second of the day
I just wish this pain would go away

I could only treasure the
pictures of you holding me
for a memory of what we used to be
and
I love you,no matter what life takes us through.

07/10/09

I wish you know:

''If loving you is still a possibility

When you return I'll be there for you

Cause in my heart I'll always love you.''