I'll be there

Michael Jackson <3



You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, Ill be there

Ill reach out my hand to you, Ill have faith in all you do
Just call my name and Ill be there

Ill be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, Im so glad that I found you
Ill be there with a love thats strong
Ill be your strength, Ill keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well thats all Im after
Whenever you need me, Ill be there
Ill be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and Ill be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know hed better be good to you
cause if he doesnt, Ill be there
Dont you know, baby, yeah yeah
Ill be there, Ill be there, just call my name, Ill be there

(just look over your shoulders, honey - oo)

Ill be there, Ill be there, whenever you need me, Ill be there
Dont you know, baby, yeah yeah

Ill be there, Ill be there, just call my name, Ill be there...

Lmao!=D

<333

安靜 An Jing Silence
Other Translations: none


曲/詞: 周杰倫
Qu/Ci: Zhou Jie Lun
Music/Lyrics: Jay Chou

Translation: ava – www.jay-chou.net

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

睡著的大提琴
Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Quiet and so old

我想你已表現的非常明白
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

我懂我也知道
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

你沒有捨不得
Ni mei you she bu de
You don't regret

你說你也會難過我不相信
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
You being with me was in the past

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope he loves you more than I do

我才會逼自己離開
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

你要我說多難堪
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

Repeat

=.=

Life sucks lately.
I'm lost and I don't seems to know what I am doing everytime.
I found myself useless and hopeless.
I realize I'm so far away from the people out there.
I have been resting the whole day,don't know what else i can do.
I seriously need to get a life.DAMN!EMILY GET A LIFE!T.T
Everyday I wake up,doing the same thing again and again...I can even list it out.
Gosh!I seriously hope My course will start as soon as possible,if not I will stuck here forever without knowing anything.
I felt guilty having all this bad habit in front of my own dad.Which is sitting in front of the pc,eat,sleep and watch tv.SIGHS.*Slap myself*I just got to wake up and face the real world.
I got to sleep early for tomorrow's exam...I'm gone.=[

Bored to death;

The pulau pangkor trip was quite boring actually.Nothing much we can do there instead of swimming and buying fishy stuffs everywhere.

The meals provided from the hotel i shall say is not the price of a four-star rating.

Well,I don't wana say much about it.But it was full of regrets after exploring the places are much more better than this 4 star hotel.The hotel we are staying is quite far away from the town,so eventually dad rented 2 bikes for the one last night.We as in 5,mum doesnt want to follow us.Dad and I squeeze in to one bike.Lol.We have to go through alot of dark places.Very freaky!

We ate ikan panggang and sotong!Enjoying eating and chit-chating.Awhile later,mum called and told us that someone tried to open the hotel room door but couldnt get in,and the door was open half way.I was shocked and worried,cause mum is alone in the hotel.So dad was talking and talking ,taking his own sweet time to leave.Sighs.


Then we went back to the hotel,i felt very insecure.I can't even sleep peacefully.In the middle of the night,there was this strong wind.I kept hearing noises under the wood floor.Mum heard it too,i quickly went to sleep with mum.Lol.Suddenly,the toilet door kept making some freaky noise.Damn it!Mum and I was quite scared.We don't know there was a strong wind until the next morning mum saw all the towel flew away.


Seriously,the facilities provided in that so called 4 star hotel is very bad.*speechless about it*

The next morning,I had a really bad stomach ache...and I didnt follow them for breakfast.Mum said the breakfast was nice.Especially with eggs!T.T...I was looking for eggs since the first day of breakfast...Ishhh!ahh well,I stay back alone in the hotel,continue sleeping.And i felt abit insecure after hearing all those nonsense ytd night.Lmao.I quickly went to bath and get ready .Luckily nothing happen.


We checked out and have lunch.It was really a long journey geting back to penang.I wasnt in a good mood actually.Traffic jam everywhere cause school holidays just started.Sighs.So hard to be patient.Well,and we straight away took dolly back.She was quite happy and excited to see us!Been so busy for a day.Lol.Apparently her period is coming thats why male dogs are chasing her..hehe..Dolly must be very attractive to all the male dogs eh! ^.^



Pictures I took from My camera ;

Dolly sun bathing behind...^.^

Nowadays I have nothing better to do,I keep thinking is there any constructive things to do at home?Hmmm...lol.

Anyway, I can't wait for the last paper on the 5th june.After that will be my holidays until 12th then I guess i should be getting my new time table already.

Got to remind myself 12thjune is my subject registration day.=D

Monday ;

I'm going pulau pangkor on the 28th of may to 30th of may.2 days nia.hehe.
Sighs.I'm gonna be worry for dolly for that 2 days.T.T
I hope everyone in my family is taking the effort to send her to the right place as in like a nice environment.
Well,I wish everything is gona work smoothly. :)

安靜

我會學著放棄你　是因為我太愛你 !

For you ;

Is very meaningful!Thanks to ''wyteheart''!

Sunny day

Today is Sunday.Something happened in the middle of sleeping.I can't believe it.Whoops!I better keep it to myself.I woke up early in the morning,looking at dolly sleeping so cute beside me...aww...she is like a baby sleeping so cute,I dare not disturb her and went back to sleep again.Because if I wake up she will follow me.But when in the middle of the night i woke up,she was like so sleepy that she cannot even get down from the bed,so cute of her you know!I'm loving her so much!HAHA...I woke up around 9 something and i'm here for blogging.So good morning blog spot!
hehe...Before that,I did some research about how can I overcome sadness and be a happy person? Now I'm all well.No worries.I shouldn't think so much anymore,there's so much that I have to go through in my life ,i still need to experience more about life.This situation is still consider a small one,I guess I will face a bigger one in the future.Is just the matter of time.I'm told that this doesn't mean the end of the world ,and i should take it easy.

As I know,my dad is planing for a 2days trip in pulau pangkor after my final exams.I'm quite excited about it.Is been ages that i never been to any trip for years.Now,this is the time to relax and have fun.Everyone in my family will be going,thats what I always wanted all the while.hehe.
Cause the langkawi trip last time was only dad,bro,and I.One of my brother and mom did'nt make it.Finally now everyone of us are going for this trip to pulau pangkor.haha...Family is always the best to go with!

Oh yeah,I did do some research about how this woman over calm herself ;

Break-ups for us especially on women seem to be nightmares. A lot of crying, sleepless nights and desperations are just some of the common effects of relationship break-ups. The hardest questions being asked is how to move on with life without him? Is there happiness after break-up? My answer is YES!!!

You must first understand that relationship break-ups are just a normal thing. That it can happen to anybody. Because not all relationship are made perfect and smooth. Problems and conflicts usually arise and if couples can't bear to handle these obstacles, a break-up will occur.

Women are born much sensitive than men. Mostly, in a relationship, its women who is deeply affected and have difficulty of moving on with life. I had relationship before and experience broken heart due to relationship break-up. But I can say that I was able to overcome that situation and went back to my normal life. How did I do that? Here's how:

1. I always pray to God whenever I feel so lonely. Whatever heartaches and worries that are boggling me were forwarded to Him. He is my source of strength.

2. I listen to good inspirational music and avoid listening to love songs. Gospel songs are good in healing sad feelings. It can also help me have a nice sleep.

3. I engage myself to lots of works. Being busy will give me no time to think about heartaches. Gardening or home crafts are great ideas to start with.

4. I go group dating with friends
. Being with supportive friends will ease your ill feelings.

5. Don't pretend you don't know him or don't avoid talking about him for it will only prolong that recovery period. Its better that you will be used to discuss topic about him until everything becomes just a normal topic.

6. Keep yourself blooming. Develop more your beauty and health care. Don't let your heartaches ruin your personality.

7. Open your heart for a new relationship. Don't be afraid to love once more. Not all men are the same. Just be extra careful next time in choosing the right guy.

It is true that time will heal the wounds but it is also a fact that the person involved must do actions to make time do it.

Do you think I can do like what she does?Well,I shall try.
But number 5 is impossible.And number 7 is hard.Oh ya!number 4,i don't have many friends,so is a bit hard.Sighs.And the rest I'm okay with it maybe.=)

I found this video:

我好孤单哦

我真的真的很辛苦
我没办法忘掉了你

我没想 到我们的爱就这么容易过去。

我知道我自错了，
难道我们之间的感情就这样结束了吗？
我知道我说什么都没用了。
可是我们最美好的回忆，
令我真的很难忘。

Yesterday ;

One of my favorite song;

He left ;

I'm falling apart.
How I wish he knew how I feel when he left me .
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I walked out all alone,
Get some left over coins and called her from the public phone.
I crossed the road and walked again,
till i can see the sky so clear in front my eyes,I tell myself why is this happening to me.
Siting on the stone looking at the waves from the sea like an idiot crying myself all alone without anyone there for me.
It was drizzling,and i thought it would rain heavily.But why is it not raining i wonder.
Sighs.
Siting alone while waiting for a close friend to reach for one hour.
But she still haven't reach and I
thought of my parents will get worried,and i decided to walked back home alone for not letting them to get worry of me just because of this matter I have in me.
Well,I'm glad that she is able to come and console me even though she has chicken pox.
No matter how ugly her hands looks like she still took the effort to come from public bus just to cheer me up.I thank her for being such a good friend for many years.
Everything just happened so quickly and it ended so fast.
He's gone,He's already gone.He might be gone forever.
Tsk..Tsk
Time past and people changed.
I shall face what I'm having now and i got to go through everything.
This is the time and perhaps this is the end of my love life.
But the feelings I have in me,will still remain the same.

I am truly sorry ;

Tied around the mess I've made
The air I breathe much harder
Everytime I speak
The words you've heard a thousand times
I know you're sick of it.
I'm sorry for making everything that hurts the most.
And after all is said and done
You pick me up no matter where i fall
You hold me in your arms and
thats like the luckiest feeling of all...

I've learned from the past,and i fear of making any stupid mistakes again.
Somehow, I can't change the past, but I belive I can change the future.
And I'm really sorry for what I've done.

Sunday

Have you heard of this quote?

Pay no mind to those who talk behind your back,

it simply means that you are two steps ahead.

that is one of my favourite quote.(:

I love the weather today,very cooling!

Nice to sleep,but still cant sleep as late as I wanted yet.Sighs.

Dolly asked me to carry her,and now she's siting on me.Lol.

So fast,and is gona be monday again.

My life is becoming so meaningless each day I woke up.

Well,how i wish i have someone to talk to when i'm bored or sad instead of talking to my self

everytime.I know is crazy to talk to myself.Lol.

I wish dolly could talk to me,and understand me.so that i can express out all my feelings and i would'nt have type it all here.You know why i wish for dollly?Cause i know dolly will never betray me.She will always be home whenever i need her.She always know what I have done in the past lately.She knew everything,but sad thing is ,she cant talk.

And I treat dolly like my sister,as you know im the only daughter in the family.Imagine how boring can it be with no one to talk to especially im sad.,there's no one that i can talk to about my feelings!Everytime i need to call and waste money to just express my feelings out to a close friend.Sometimes,i have this thinking she might get bored of me saying all about how i feel.Moreover everytime when i call she will be busy working for her mum and no time to console me,

And i will feel left out.

Well,afterall...i still prefer a sister that lives together with me.

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Treasured memories of one so dear

Though absent you are always near

A million words could not express

My love, my sorrow, my emptiness.

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Cry myself to sleep

day after day

night after night

i fell and fell

but nothing seemed right

so i got down on my knees and begged

plz be with me but nothing is going to work

so i cry myself to sleep...

Goodnight my love.

This song always cheer me up ;

I always listen to this when I can't move on with my life.This song really helps me to be strong.I really love this song seriously!







When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When youre distraught
And in pain without anyone
When we keep crying out
To be safe
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
you can get there alone
it's okay
once you say


I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That Im strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Dont you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And youll find what you need to prevail
Once you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That Im strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Dont be afraid
Theres nothing you cant face
And should they tell you
Youll never pull through
Dont hesitate
Stand tall and say
Yeah yeah yeahhhh

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That Im strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I'll make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
Can stand up once again
And I live one more day, and I
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes, you can
Youre gonna make it through the rain.


♥
Everytime I stumble,
This song will always be in my mind.And I will listen to it to cheer up myself.
The louder it plays on my ear phone,the more i feel the comfort from this song.It helps me to wipe away my silent tears and wipe away the pain. ♥





It does not need a special day to bring you to my mind
The days when I don't think of you are very hard to find
Your loss is a heartache no one can heal
Your memory is something no one can steal
Wishing your absence was only a dream...

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Beautiful memories silently kept
Of one we loved and will never forget.

Life Quotes

There comes a point in your life

when you realize who matters,

who never did,

who wont anymore,

and who always will.

So don't worry about people from your past,

there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

There comes a time in life

When you have to let go of all

the pointless drama

and the people who create it and surround yourself

with people who make you laugh

so hard that you forget

the bad and focus solely on the good.

After all,life is too short to be anything but happy.

Heartless People with no brain to think.=[

Woke up in the morning,and I started to get ''OMG.WHY!''Well,it was a forwarded email from a friend.Sighs...Seriously,I'm very sad to see this happening.Is so painful to see all this babies.I almost cried.How sad!

It says;

Think before you decide to have sex. Think before you get an unwanted pregnancy. A baby is for life, its not a toy. Use your brain before you dump the baby in a garbage bin and leave the baby to die. You should know whether is your boyfriend are ready to get married or take responsibility or not if you get pregnant. If no then don’t have sex or practice safe sex.If you thought you were ready to have sex, you should consider what would happen if you became pregnant.I am not talking about religious part, people know about it. You should get married to prevent committing the sin of fornication or adultery. People won’t do it if they think about religious.How if you have an unwanted pregnancy today, what would you do? Are you ready to be a mother? If yes, then good for you.Now you have the child no matter what. It is a life that you have created, and if you are unable to take care of this child, you can do the most unselfish, loving thing, and that is to let a loving family adopt him/her. That is the choice you have to make. Don’t dump your baby..