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August 7, 2009

Recovering from the past ;

I know I've been annoying him once awhile,I don't want to and I don't mean to.
I thought I could feel better without him,but seems like its a failure.Going Nuts.
Anyway,I'm gonna recover from the past soon,I've said it!I mean it!*arghhhh*
Yes,I know I don't understand the sentence of ''get the hell out of your life''.And I am completely BULLSHIT.Tell the whole world in your facebook all you want.I used my dad account to remove you for a reason,I know how it feels whenever I see you writing bad things about me,even though you said is not related to me but you know what's in your heart feeling about me.I don't wanna see you saying all that to me anymore,I don't even know what I'm feeling towards you saying all that about me.
I promised this time I won't argue with you or talk to you anymore.I won't be in your life making you miserable...I won't bring you burden either.You wish i didn't exist in you life.And now i will make your wish come true...I won't make you involve anything about me.Treat me like i never existed alright.I deserve myself a Bullshit.
Thank you.I will never want my life to be like this anymore but to have a better life.I've enough of experiencing relationships.I can't be lost but to wake my self up.From now onwards I will never talk about my past life being with you anymore.Or being aware of you,I wanna forget about everything.Nothing is going to related to you from this post onwards.
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Wanted to blog about this earlier but pictures were not completed.But still I can't wait to share it.Gosh!It was last Friday 07/08/09.The last day of my mid term exams.
We was having an exam in the morning for 2 hours.And I went back to have lunch.I've heard that 'Pan Wei Bo' will be coming to Tarc.I was quite excited,but i was feeling uncertain whether I'm able to go or not.My friends suggested me to go lunch with them after the exam.So they picked me up from my house.Ended up,just one of my friend were the only one who fetched me.I was feeling quite weird and kept wondering where is another friend of mine goes,I asked and asked.What can we do just the both of us.I knew there's another car behind look exactly like her.At first,I don't believe what she says,but i ended up being stupid again.I got fooled by them....ARGHH...i thought it was only the second time,but but..is already the 3rd time.=(Now i only know I'm stupid and naive.Lmao.Is fun though.
Well,after having a light meal in sushi king,I was feeling a bit sad that no one suggested me to go get the ticket to see wei bo.Then i told them I wanna get the ticket in Bread history since they told me earlier about it.So i mentioned,then I went there to get the ticket plus the album.I was so delirious about getting the ticket so fast.And we was told that wei bo was gonna drop by to bread history for awhile.But we couldn't wait any longer for him anymore,we was worried we will have no seats and all . After that they took me to their friend's place near tarc.
So we as in 5 girls in the room chit chatting about how i am being fooled,then only found out they lied 3 times to me!T.T Poor me.But it was also a good thing to get to know new friends that are older than me...Benefits me a lot.HAHAHAHA...XD
After crapping ,off we go to Tarc.

Shy People:




We reached tarc quite early i guess,around 4pm.We almost waited for an hour or 2...can't remember.But what I know was long.Wei bo took a long time to appear on the stage.Lol.So I have nothing better to do to take a picture of the stage.







finally it begins;

This is the starting part of the emcee entertaining us




Now there it goes ,the pan wei bo ;

Hot chick;=]


Interesting performance;
All his dancers are seriously beautiful and talented in dancing.The dance was very energetic.


I really love the dance.












I kept taking pictures of them talking ;



Blurr picture of him singing;
Singing;

Talking again;






Received flowers...Sun flowers?


3 of his fans went up to the stage to dance.shall i say the girl is lucky.=]




The guy with spectacles did some break dance.Quite cool.
Beat boxing for the guy to dance;
Wei bo was asking the girl to dance with his dancing teacher;

Feeling funny;


Learning the steps of her dance;








ended up,the girl chosen wei bo to dance with her;sweet...
this guy was really good in dancing too;










Don't know what kind of present they got;

Was wondering which door is wei bo coming out...lol;



Those guys told us not to get near from there;


And I managed to take a picture of him coming out;



After feeling so tired,we went kim gary for dinner ;

Wei Wei's


Went back around 9 something,I had a great day...Thanks to them!=D

The album;



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Dear Sarah,I've read your blog.I never know how you feel towards me.After reading your post,i only realized how much you missed the past we had together.I never forget about the times we had earlier.
Is just some thing happened lately,I never expected it to be.You know since the day you came my house some huge problem facing me,I guess i should tell you about this when we gonna have a gathering again.I really wish you could understand what kind of situation I am in now.You was involved in this situation.That's why you should know why we have our own changes until now.The distance of our relationship is very far apart now,but no matter what,I believe we can make it right.I am sorry if you don't like the way i am now.I know I've changed a lot compare to last time.I was just trying to get a good reputation,but it doesn't work this way.So we shall talk again when you come back to the wonderland of us last time.Thanks for getting in touch.

July 30, 2009

Feeling sick...

I won't be updating that much anymore.A lot of things happened lately,and I don't wanna talk about it.Feeling very sick with my throat.*Itchy*I kept grunting like a pig.Lol.
My mid term exams is coming on Monday...sighs.Hopefully I can make it.

Every time when i thought of him,I really have no mood to do anything.
Forcing my self not to bother him anymore.Kept wondering what is he doing now.
When is this gonna end i wonder.

Is he even gonna read my blog to check on me?I don't think so anymore.I know he wont give a damn about me anyway.Cause I know he don't care anymore.I just don't deserve anything good from him.I understood very well.

Well,perhaps I shall stop talking about him already.
Got to be strong again and move on.

If anyone knows what i am feeling right now,I will be surprise.(:
I don't wish to see people ending up like me.Cause now,I am in a very bad situation.

Oh ya,my birthday is coming tomorrow,how sweet right.My mother is going Genting Highlands tomorrow,how i wish I could follow too,I was suppose to follow but suddenly she changed her mind.
I even know what kind of present I'm getting tomorrow...Heh...But i'm not celebrating it as usual.
This will be the second year of my worse birthday ever.The first one,was because of someone too.Is just a very unhappy birthday I had for the past and now.Sighs.I don't wanna talk any further about it either.

I'm so sick of my life.
Thanks a lot for giving me the chance to express my feelings here.(:
My dad is coming back soon,got to go now.Lmao!

July 19, 2009

Life's a mess ;

Things just wont get any better but to face misery.Yes,i ruined everything I had just like that.Do you think I want it to happened?Well,maybe for you I wanted it.But all this wasn't the truth.
I just could not make it right to you.The distance we have is unpredictable.Sometimes close but sometimes is just have to be so far apart.
Perhaps our love is just as simple as this or as confusing as possible.
I'm very exhausted too...Things won't ended up like this if I am fine with everything.
I just couldn't hide myself but to express it out to you.
I am very sorry to make a bad day for your birthday.Forgive me.I just wish you would just celebrate happily with your family.I guess is just too late,I could only feel guilty myself towards you.
The most important thing about love is understanding and trust,but sad thing is we don't have.I am sorry, is all because of what i did during the past that couldn't make you trust me.I might not be understanding sometimes but i actually know why are your treating me like this.
I'm sorry that i can't make it to your expectation.I'm so sorry.

July 5, 2009

Lovely moments

Spending our lovely moments together,i just have to feel like the happiest girl ever.
We had such a good time spending together yesterday.How nice if we have the chance to live together just for one day and one night.*Lol*
Yesterday's dinner was the best,and i managed to finish it all,perhaps I was very hungry.That's why is all good for me.^.^
I know I'm no good in being so detail of tasting food.My dad always tell me I don't know how to eat good food.
Well,should have take a picture of the food last night.Cause that is like the first time i get to eat his cooking.Aww...too bad,we ate it all but no pictures for the memories.But funny thing was I drew it in Paint so that i can keep it as a memory.Lol.Since I already drew it,i think i should just share it here.Is ugly okay,I'm not expecting any nicer..you know la...I'm using Paint!Hope no one is gonna laugh at this drawing.
Here it is ;

June 26, 2009

I'll be there

Michael Jackson <3



You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, Ill be there

Ill reach out my hand to you, Ill have faith in all you do
Just call my name and Ill be there

Ill be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, Im so glad that I found you
Ill be there with a love thats strong
Ill be your strength, Ill keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well thats all Im after
Whenever you need me, Ill be there
Ill be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and Ill be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know hed better be good to you
cause if he doesnt, Ill be there
Dont you know, baby, yeah yeah
Ill be there, Ill be there, just call my name, Ill be there

(just look over your shoulders, honey - oo)

Ill be there, Ill be there, whenever you need me, Ill be there
Dont you know, baby, yeah yeah

Ill be there, Ill be there, just call my name, Ill be there...

June 18, 2009

June 4, 2009

<333

安靜 An Jing Silence
Other Translations: none


曲/詞: 周杰倫
Qu/Ci: Zhou Jie Lun
Music/Lyrics: Jay Chou

Translation: ava – www.jay-chou.net

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

睡著的大提琴
Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Quiet and so old

我想你已表現的非常明白
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

我懂我也知道
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

你沒有捨不得
Ni mei you she bu de
You don't regret

你說你也會難過我不相信
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
You being with me was in the past

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope he loves you more than I do

我才會逼自己離開
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

你要我說多難堪
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

Repeat

=.=

Life sucks lately.
I'm lost and I don't seems to know what I am doing everytime.
I found myself useless and hopeless.
I realize I'm so far away from the people out there.
I have been resting the whole day,don't know what else i can do.
I seriously need to get a life.DAMN!EMILY GET A LIFE!T.T
Everyday I wake up,doing the same thing again and again...I can even list it out.
Gosh!I seriously hope My course will start as soon as possible,if not I will stuck here forever without knowing anything.
I felt guilty having all this bad habit in front of my own dad.Which is sitting in front of the pc,eat,sleep and watch tv.SIGHS.*Slap myself*I just got to wake up and face the real world.
I got to sleep early for tomorrow's exam...I'm gone.=[

June 2, 2009

Bored to death;

The pulau pangkor trip was quite boring actually.Nothing much we can do there instead of swimming and buying fishy stuffs everywhere.

The meals provided from the hotel i shall say is not the price of a four-star rating.

Well,I don't wana say much about it.But it was full of regrets after exploring the places are much more better than this 4 star hotel.The hotel we are staying is quite far away from the town,so eventually dad rented 2 bikes for the one last night.We as in 5,mum doesnt want to follow us.Dad and I squeeze in to one bike.Lol.We have to go through alot of dark places.Very freaky!

We ate ikan panggang and sotong!Enjoying eating and chit-chating.Awhile later,mum called and told us that someone tried to open the hotel room door but couldnt get in,and the door was open half way.I was shocked and worried,cause mum is alone in the hotel.So dad was talking and talking ,taking his own sweet time to leave.Sighs.


Then we went back to the hotel,i felt very insecure.I can't even sleep peacefully.In the middle of the night,there was this strong wind.I kept hearing noises under the wood floor.Mum heard it too,i quickly went to sleep with mum.Lol.Suddenly,the toilet door kept making some freaky noise.Damn it!Mum and I was quite scared.We don't know there was a strong wind until the next morning mum saw all the towel flew away.


Seriously,the facilities provided in that so called 4 star hotel is very bad.*speechless about it*

The next morning,I had a really bad stomach ache...and I didnt follow them for breakfast.Mum said the breakfast was nice.Especially with eggs!T.T...I was looking for eggs since the first day of breakfast...Ishhh!ahh well,I stay back alone in the hotel,continue sleeping.And i felt abit insecure after hearing all those nonsense ytd night.Lmao.I quickly went to bath and get ready .Luckily nothing happen.


We checked out and have lunch.It was really a long journey geting back to penang.I wasnt in a good mood actually.Traffic jam everywhere cause school holidays just started.Sighs.So hard to be patient.Well,and we straight away took dolly back.She was quite happy and excited to see us!Been so busy for a day.Lol.Apparently her period is coming thats why male dogs are chasing her..hehe..Dolly must be very attractive to all the male dogs eh! ^.^



Pictures I took from My camera ;













































































Dolly sun bathing behind...^.^

Nowadays I have nothing better to do,I keep thinking is there any constructive things to do at home?Hmmm...lol.

Anyway, I can't wait for the last paper on the 5th june.After that will be my holidays until 12th then I guess i should be getting my new time table already.

Got to remind myself 12thjune is my subject registration day.=D