lifeeeee oh lifeee

Time passes by fast, and now what? I'm graduating from my diploma after 2 and a half years. I'm in a dilemma here , and not sure what to do. Whether to continue for my degree or start working. But it's not easy to find a job these days, and i might face financial problems for my degree! Even I get the chance to use PTPTN loan, it will be a huge amount of money for me to pay up in the future.I'm rather confused... *sigh* I wonder what more I can do.Time goes too fast for me... VERY FAST! I'm not ready.

Now you see, if i start working, I will definitely face transportation problems. I don't have my own car. I do not know whether to look for a job in penang or KL. If it is penang, I will face difficulties in getting to my workplace.If is KL, it might be even worse. Oh gosh! It's getting on my nerves. MY future! FUTURE! One question: HOW?

I gotta figure it out myself.

How I wish that I'm as rich as others. They are able to pursue their own interests and desires.

But unfortunately, I need to work it out myself. And stand up, to earn my own Money.

Everything is MONEY now, I just need MONEY!

First I need to write a proper resume, and get myself into an interview. But, nothing's easy.

A diploma holder = NOTHING. come on, there are better people than me . I don't even know what are my strenghts. All I can see is my weaknesses. Oh fine, I shouldn't a pessimist. Have you ever heard of a pessimist complains about the wind, and the optimist expects it to change. ahh well...
I have low self esteem.. I have no confidence. Thats very sad indeed.

I just need to work it out.

There's one thing i dislike about my college is, they do not offer internships for the students, but other colleges does. That's really unfair. I would love to adapt to working life, but i don't even have the opportunity to learn. I just want to start looking for internships and see how it goes.

It's okay...
Seriously, I need to do something!
I'm having my exams on the 4th oct and after that it's time to say bye bye to my college!
Isn't that too fast... :(

I just need to get some rest now, till the next morning.