lifeeeee oh lifeee

Time passes by fast, and now what? I'm graduating from my diploma after 2 and a half years. I'm in a dilemma here , and not sure what to do. Whether to continue for my degree or start working. But it's not easy to find a job these days, and i might face financial problems for my degree! Even I get the chance to use PTPTN loan, it will be a huge amount of money for me to pay up in the future.I'm rather confused... *sigh* I wonder what more I can do.Time goes too fast for me... VERY FAST! I'm not ready.

Now you see, if i start working, I will definitely face transportation problems. I don't have my own car. I do not know whether to look for a job in penang or KL. If it is penang, I will face difficulties in getting to my workplace.If is KL, it might be even worse. Oh gosh! It's getting on my nerves. MY future! FUTURE! One question: HOW?

I gotta figure it out myself.

How I wish that I'm as rich as others. They are able to pursue their own interests and desires.

But unfortunately, I need to work it out myself. And stand up, to earn my own Money.

Everything is MONEY now, I just need MONEY!

First I need to write a proper resume, and get myself into an interview. But, nothing's easy.

A diploma holder = NOTHING. come on, there are better people than me . I don't even know what are my strenghts. All I can see is my weaknesses. Oh fine, I shouldn't a pessimist. Have you ever heard of a pessimist complains about the wind, and the optimist expects it to change. ahh well...
I have low self esteem.. I have no confidence. Thats very sad indeed.

I just need to work it out.

There's one thing i dislike about my college is, they do not offer internships for the students, but other colleges does. That's really unfair. I would love to adapt to working life, but i don't even have the opportunity to learn. I just want to start looking for internships and see how it goes.

It's okay...
Seriously, I need to do something!
I'm having my exams on the 4th oct and after that it's time to say bye bye to my college!
Isn't that too fast... :(

I just need to get some rest now, till the next morning.

:)

Isn't it funny how you can think you're completely over someone but if you drive past his house, stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared, or even get a glance of him on the street....just in an instant, it can change all that.? And you start to remember the pain. And that hollow space is feeling more and more like the Grand Canyon with every second that goes by. But you bury these feelings deep down, so deep that you're sure no one will be able to tell. To the outside world, you smile and act like nothing is wrong or will ever be. Everything's just perfect. For that split second that you've locked eyes, a tiny whisper, say 'make this last forever, only and just this moment forever and ever'. But after a second or so, you go along your own merry way, all the while home realizing how much you do miss him, how much you still love him...and it sticks with you for days, weeks, maybe months, until fate decides to hand you another one of those unexpected moments. And then you finally understand the worst feeling in the world is when the person you love most is standing right next to you, yet you can never have them. Try as you may, you can't make someone love you."

beautifully broken me

"Everyone says for me to just give up and get over you, but it's not that easy to give something so special like you up. I feel something they don't. I only have this life, if loving you makes me happy, then that's what I'm going to do, even if I'll have to wait a while to hold you again."

A guy who makes you laugh, cooks good food, plays the piano or the guitar, loves you like his first and last one, dresses decently and isn't obsessed with himself. One in a million. :(

Let me be strong:

Let me be stronger in life's trials, let me embrace change in my life.
Give me strength to overcome sadness and pain.
Guide me down my path, where happiness and joy abound.
Alight my world with knowledge and understanding.

Help me to understand myself as well as those around me.
Give me insight to my personal faults, that I may change them.
Allow me the understanding I need to carry me through life.
Strengthen my mind, in all that I need to better understand.

The world is huge, and I am but a speck in it.
Let me be a light to others that I may help along the way.
Encourage me that I may shine for you, and others.
Words hold great power, May I never say any thing hurtful to others.

Give me the strength I need to grow and mature in this world.
Let others always see me for who I am and not who they want me to be.
Allow others to accept me as I am, and not try to mold me into someone else.
Let me be a stronger person than I am, and be true to myself.

By jamie hargis

Let me be :

Some days, I may be wrong
But that doesn't mean that I have been, all along
So please just let me be
Let me be strong
Some days, I may be weak
But that doesn't mean that I still can't speak
I'll make it out
I'll make it out all right
Some days, I may be lost
But that doesn't mean that I should suffer a cost
For I'm still going
I'm still going strong
Some days, I may be a stranger
But that doesn't mean that I will cause danger
Just let me be
Let me be me
Yes.
Some days, I may be wrong
But that doesn't mean that I have been, all along
So please let me be
Let me be strong

By Kaye Boss